CONFESSIONS OF A WITCH GIRL: HOW MUCH IS YOUR LIFE WORTH?
How much is today worth to you? How about tomorrow? How about the next 50 years? What is every day for the rest of your life worth to you?
We mistakenly believe we have time. We mistakenly believe life is not a gift. We get lost and warped in to believing that we don’t need to make the changes today, that they can wait until tomorrow. That our dreams will still be waiting for us several years from now. I believe your dreams will always be waiting for you- but don’t let them meet you at your grave. Don’t let their only role in your life to be a soft glimmer of a hope once felt deep within your heart, as that hope gently tugs your hand across the finish line of life.
How many days do you have left? How many days have you already had? What have you done with them? Do you wish you could reclaim any of your time back?
These are all questions we must ask ourselves every single day. Each new day is the horizon of a future you have not yet created- but can begin walking towards. In each and every moment the choices we make are creating our tomorrows- and so often we assume it is only the grand gestures, the massive changes, and huge decisions that shape our destinies. But they are not. Every meal you consume alters the body you live in tomorrow. Every text you send back to that gas-lighting ex shapes your self worth. Every second you spend at the job you hate is stealing a second from time spent towards finding the job you love. We are constantly making life altering decisions every day, disguised as a coffee order or a 10 minute Instagram scroll sesh. If we stop viewing our choices as minimal in what seems like an obvious way, and instead measure them by what they are withholding us from- how insignificant are any of our choices?
A woman can become pregnant in a matter of a 15 minute choice- a choice that can be written off as so insignificant has now altered the course of her life, whether or not she decides to follow through on the pregnancy- her life has been altered permanently. Every time you reach for a cookie instead of an apple- compounds over time. We are infinite beings with infinite consequences and yet also infinite potentials. We hate taking ownership of our every moment, because to the human mind that seems insurmountable. We glorify our auto-piloted lives with one vacation a year where we truly feel alive. It is true that not every moment should feel like a vacation- but I do believe that every moment should feel like life. How many moments have you wished away from yourself? How many seconds have you stared at a clock praying for 5pm so you can leave your office only to head home to a couch where you numb yourself with scrolling and netflixing and whatever other methods available to you to escape a life that you aren’t truly living- you aren’t truly honoring.
So I ask you again what is your life f*cking worth to you? Is it really worth staying in that relationship that hasn’t shifted and is only stifling you? Is it really worth skipping yet another gym session for another party night that will steal your tomorrow? Is it really worth giving yourself another pass on your diet so you can indulge again and get farther and farther away from your goals? Every moment is either taking you a step closer to life or a step closer to loss.
Stop minimizing your moments- they’re the only ones you’ve got, and they all fu*cking matter.
